Even if I'm not playing it, I'm thinking about it. Thinking about not playing it. And how I want to play it but I shouldn't be playing it. That I thought of it but want to forget I thought of it. That it keeps coming back so I will let myself play a little later if I can just finish this sentence. Or finish up my hour of writing. But then I'm playing it and not wanting to stop.

Just want to try one more trick to solve this game. I can do this and then stop. But that didn't work and now I see something else that I think will work. Yes. But no, wait. Let me go back to the beginning of the game and start again and see if I can geta different pattern and have more options at this point in the game. Damn no. That didn't work. Let me back up a little and try again a different way.

Shit. It's been an hour and I'm still staring at these cards. I need to get breakfast. Oh and I haven't gotten very far in my writing yet. I still have chunk to do. And there are my morning pages that I haven't done yet. And there is my reading. I have three book going I want to finish. And I have errands to run and now I probably won't get to all of them before lunch. Damn.